Prowling around the Tarot Spreads forum I once again happened upon an interesting spread.... that's not to say they aren't all interesting in their own unique ways, but this one caught my eye........
After wrestling my eye back into it's socket I decided to give it a whirl...
So.... I shuffle the deck (I am a subscriber to Rifle Shufflers Anonymous........oh wait.....anonymous ....whoops... although in my defence, I do rifle shuffle without bending the cards) asking:
"Where do my highest potentials and abilities lie?"
I then cut the deck into four piles 'Physical', 'Mental', 'Emotional' and "Spiritual' and start searching for the 'Sun' card.
I am not surprised in the slightest when the 'Sun' card is nowhere to be found in the 'Physical' pile. I have no illusions as to my physical prowess...or rather lack there of..... a walk to the mailbox to see if any new decks have arrived is quite physical enough for me thanks.....the mailbox IS a fair walk away, after all I do live on a large block of land.....still...... it's a good thing the mail only comes three times a week...
I look through the 'Mental' pile....once again the 'Sun' is noticeably absent... I feel let down..... I happen to think of myself as quite the little intellectual wannabe..... *makes notes to stop dying hair funky colours....dye must be effecting brain functionality*
A quick search through the 'Emotional' pile once again yields nothing.... so now there is only one place it can be....just to be positive I look through the last pile and sure enough, there's the 'Sun', nestled between the 'Hierophant' and the 'Seven of Chalices'....
So, my highest abilities and potential lie somewhere within spirituality....
I am unsure what to make of this....
I am not a very spiritual person. I don't consider myself psychic or clair-anything.... I'm surprised that I can read Tarot as well as I seem to be able to....
So to be told that what I am best at consists of something of a spiritual nature..... it almost makes me want to do a re-draw!
Never the less, I shuffle the little group of cards. Much to my disappointment the pile is now too little to rifle.... not that that stops me from trying. After five or six unsuccessful attempts I spread the cards out on the bed, swish them around a bit and collect them all back up again...... then proceed to lay them out....it's just a simple three card spread...
1. What aids me in developing my highest potential?
Four of pentacles.
A little girl is holding a skull....her hair is flowing as if blown by some invisible breeze. She is dressed in a white nightgown. Behind her on a tree branch sit two owls.
This scene kind of reminds me of Shakespeare's Hamlet.....
I'm not sure what to think. Four of pents to me is about fear. But in this case a fear of what? The fear of loss? Fear of abandonment? Fear of....I dunno...skulls, owls and gentle breezes? How do these things help me in developing my highest potential??
What do I have to lose? I guess I could lose my belief structure. To not believe that I have any psychic skills or spiritual potential is still a belief... perhaps losing these negative thoughts about myself would aid in my spiritual development? Maybe I need to peal away all my negative thoughts, 'bare my skull' as it were, become my inner child who is ready to believe that anything is possible and find a wise guide who will help me on this journey..... a wise nocturnal guide...one that keeps asking 'who? who?'
2. What hinders me in developing my highest potential?
The High Priestess
I am always drawn to the squirrel at the priestess' feet..... reminds me of 'the happy squirrel' from the Simpson's.... I have my little chuckle, the one I always have when I pick this card, then continue looking at the symbolism.
The priestess sits on a stone outside in the forest. She looks totally aloof. Has her head raised high and is looking down her nose at everything. She has on a funny papal hat and holds a scepter in her hand. The more I study her expression, the more I am convinced that she looks like a real b*&%h....
I find this amusing because her toga style dress has slipped, exposing a nipple and I am SO NOT going to tell her.....*snickers*
The snooty little priestess wears a look that tells me she probably has all the knowledge I seek but is unwilling to share it.
I live in the middle of nowhere, and doubt I am going to find anyone out here who can help me develop spiritually or help me on a spiritual quest of any kind.....unless of course I am interested in becoming a Jehovah's Witness..... yes that's right.... even in the middle of nowhere they will track you down and beat you up with their watchtower pamphlets...anyway... I digress...... I think this card is trying to tell me that gaining knowledge from my peers will be hard to do in person. I will have to rely on other sources such as books and the Internet, not to mention all my lovely new found friends at AT..... I can get the knowledge I seek, it will just be a little harder to come by than if I had someone physically available who I could hang out with and discuss minuscule little details with.
3. A possible outcome once you have formed and developed your highest potential.
Seven of Chalices
A little girl stands, looking confused. She is looking at something unseen to her left. Behind her are some horrible-little-golem-like-elf-things, that I am sure she has no knowledge of else she'd probably have run long ago leaving just a card with horrible-little-golem-like-elf-things to be seen.....
Seven cups along the bottom of the card.
This is really odd. This card is sitting here in front of me.... begging me to interpret it's symbolism....but in my minds eye I keep seeing the Gilded seven of cups instead! This one seems to focus on fantasy and imagination, that the girl is imagining all these horrible things behind her and stuff... I don't know... I can't really get into it because I am too busy imagining the other card. The gilded seven however is a beautiful card, as opposed to this not so pleasant one. It shows 7 cups up in the air, each one filled with a different thing, from memory I think one is a white dove, there is also a rainbow and bubbles. That card I usually interpret as an abundance of choice... that there is so much to choose from and that they're all equally tempting, the only thing being for certain is the fact that a choice must be made!
I think I am going to go with that interpretation....that if and when I realise my highest potential, the world will be filled with an endless amount of possibilities, but at the same time, not to let my imagination get ahead of me! Maybe I shouldn't be imagining that I am going to be amazingly this amazing spiritual being..... it might be the height of my potential, but there will be millions of other people out there who will be better than me.....wow....way to knock myself back down to earth!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Face Off
Been poking around the spreads section of AT, looking for something interesting to do. Not really wanting to find out anything else about myself as I am currently in ostrich mode (with my head firmly buried in the sand) in regards to my life, hoping that if I just ignore everything for long enough, it will eventually all go away..... why worry about something today when I could get hit by a bus tomorrow right???
Although I would be hoping that my cards would give me some indication of said bus heading my way....
Like the time I woke up one morning with the five of pents plastered to my stomach..... I had no idea how it got there....it somehow traveled from my bedside table, into the bed, then found it's way onto my stomach, where it clung until such a time that I woke up in the morning, had a stretch, got out of the bed and wondered 'What the hell is that???'
My spirit guides have a quirky sense of humour.
So aaaaanyway, back to what I was saying before getting side tracked, I was looking for a spread that didn't involve myself, something entertaining.... and found quite an interesting one. It's called the Deck Argument Spread.
Basic Layout
............9.......10..........
.........1...5....3...7.........
.........2...6....4...8.........
So I set up a play date for my Gilded and Sorcerers decks.......
Hopefully they play nice......
Cards 1 and 2: Gilded Deck, what are two things you like about Sorcerers Deck?
Five of Swords and Five of Wands....
Ahh..... I asked you what you LIKED, Gilded....now play nice! Don't be so mean!
Five of Swords: "Well" says Mr Gilded (yes, I think this deck is male) "I guess I like the ruthless way that Ms Sorcerers (it's SO a she) tarot cuts straight to the truth. She doesn't care if she's trampling all over your feelings, leaving you keeled over crying "Why???" She gives it to you straight and narrow, and I admire that about her."
Five of Wands: "I also like the fact that she sometimes leaves you bewildered and confused, like you're going round and round in circles, fighting with yourself"
*blushes*
"I like this because I know it always sends you running back to me, for a quick 'one card draw' to clear things up...... you know me honey, I'll take whatever I can get!" *Blows me kiss*
Ah...ok....
Cards 3 and 4: Sorcerers Deck, what are two things you like about Gilded Deck?
Four of Cups and Four of Swords
So Gilded gave me two fives and you give me two fours..... I guess that shows you're kinda playing well...
Four of Cups: "Hmmm" She says thoughtfully... "I guess I like that since you got me you've been neglecting Gilded"
*giggles*
Hey! That wasn't the question! The question was what do you specifically like about Gilded!
"Oh ok...." Pauses to think... "Ummm.....I like the way he makes you feel. When you use him you tend to feel like a little girl being taken for a wild ride on a scary wolf! Tarot cards used to bore you, and you almost gave up reading until you found him, and if it wasn't for him, you never would have found me! So I really really like that about him!"
Four of Swords: *More giggling* "I like the fact that both me and Mr Gilded get to sleep in the same box on your nightstand together! Before I came to you I used to be afraid of sleeping at night. I was afraid of the proverbial "monster under my bed", but then you took me in and placed me in that beautiful bag, right next to Mr Gilded, I feel safe and feel like I can have a good nights rest before waking and playing with you all day!"
*Bats her eyelashes at Gilded*
Hey! Cut that out you two.... I don't want to open that box one morning and find a mini deck in there!
Cards 5 and 6: Gilded Deck, what are two things you don't like about Sorcerers Deck?
Wheel of Fortune and King of Cups
Wheel of Fortune: "I don't like the way she can send you round and round and round and rou..."
But before you mentioned that you liked that
"Yeah I know, but I like it from a selfish view, because then you come and use me, but from a totally selfless view, cos you know, I'm big on the whole selfless thing, I hate it because I don't like to see you confused."
But it's probably my fault. If I knew how to read her cards better she wouldn't send me round and round...
Not to mention, that I don't read you very well either...
"Hmph!!!"
*Crosses his arms*
"I think SHE does it on purpose"
King of Cups: "I also dislike the way she opened up your intuition. That was supposed to be my job! I was the most beautiful deck you had ever seen! You had me for over a year! I was your only deck and you were happy with me. Then you found AT.... BAH! Don't get me started on AT! Do you honestly think I don't see how addicted you are?! I'm a tarot deck! You can't fool me! You found AT and realised there were all these other decks out there. You spent HOURS looking at all those pretty decks, then, suddenly SHE turns up and I get neglected! Worst of all you read better intuatively with her than you ever did with me! That hurts!!!"
*gets all emotional*
Aw, but you'll always be my first love! *Gives her Gilded Deck a hug!*
Cards 7 and 8: Sorcerers Deck, what are two things you don't like about Gilded Deck?
The Sun, Eight of Swords
The Sun: "I don't like that he is prettier than me. Don't get me wrong, I think I am pretty, but I know that you think he is prettier. How do you think that makes me feel?? I also dislike that he is easier to handle than me. Just give me a chance! I am only this slippery because I am new.... read the de-enabling thread! Look at all those people who complain about how slippery he is! It's just that you've been using him so long that you don't remember it. I'll be that pleasant to touch if you keep working with me"
First of all, I think you are pretty but in your own unique way.
Secondly, this is supposed to be about him not you!
*pouts* "I know. It's just that his colours are much more vibrant and so much prettier, and I have these dull pastels... how can you think my cards are sure of themselves if my colours aren't even sure of themselves...
Stop stressing. Just keep giving me the right cards and I'll know what to do with them...lets move on, you seem to be stuck in a rut here...
Eight of Swords: "I don't like that you feel bound to him. Like you owe him something. I think you are quite capable of doing an IDS with me but you keep chickening out because you don't think that you can *does an eyeroll* lock him in a box for a couple of weeks and keep your hands off him. Honestly, anyone'd think he's a piece of chocolate cake the way you act around him sometimes. He has you blinded with his beauty.... it annoys me"
Ah ok.... a tarot deck with image/body issues..........*sigh*
Card 9: Gilded Deck, how do you over all feel about Sorcerers Deck?
Strength:
"I like the way she has empowered you. Given you strength and courage to work with the tarot intuitively. I feel she makes you a better reader, even if you are just a beginner. Over all I think she has allowed you to improve greatly. You have grown by leaps and bounds and at the end of the day......I think I like her. She brings out the best in you."
*suddenly becomes shy and decides to intently study his toes*
Thank you for your insight Gilded..... it has been... interesting
Card 10: Sorcerers Deck, how do you over all feel about Gilded Deck?
Nine of wands.
"I like him as a friend but I wouldn't sleep with him"
Ah is that your funny little tarot way of saying that he is pretty to look at but I shouldn't read with him?
"Yep! Precisely! He is pretty but you just don't click with him like you do with me. His imagery is so beautiful that you get lost in it. It ties you down and tires you out which is why you are unable to read him properly. You spend too much time admiring his looks and find it too hard to get the message that he is trying to convey to you. You end up giving up and going for his Little White book, which is actually a big orange book and takes up too much space. I think he is one wand away from being a major burden."
Interesting! Thank you so much for your insight..... it's true...I do find it a lot harder to read with Mr Gilded, but he is so beautiful that I just can't give up on him! I love him too much.... I guess I shall persevere and one day have my 'AHAA!!!' moment, where everything will just make sense...
Although I would be hoping that my cards would give me some indication of said bus heading my way....
Like the time I woke up one morning with the five of pents plastered to my stomach..... I had no idea how it got there....it somehow traveled from my bedside table, into the bed, then found it's way onto my stomach, where it clung until such a time that I woke up in the morning, had a stretch, got out of the bed and wondered 'What the hell is that???'
My spirit guides have a quirky sense of humour.
So aaaaanyway, back to what I was saying before getting side tracked, I was looking for a spread that didn't involve myself, something entertaining.... and found quite an interesting one. It's called the Deck Argument Spread.
Basic Layout
............9.......10..........
.........1...5....3...7.........
.........2...6....4...8.........
So I set up a play date for my Gilded and Sorcerers decks.......
Hopefully they play nice......
Cards 1 and 2: Gilded Deck, what are two things you like about Sorcerers Deck?
Five of Swords and Five of Wands....
Ahh..... I asked you what you LIKED, Gilded....now play nice! Don't be so mean!
Five of Swords: "Well" says Mr Gilded (yes, I think this deck is male) "I guess I like the ruthless way that Ms Sorcerers (it's SO a she) tarot cuts straight to the truth. She doesn't care if she's trampling all over your feelings, leaving you keeled over crying "Why???" She gives it to you straight and narrow, and I admire that about her."
Five of Wands: "I also like the fact that she sometimes leaves you bewildered and confused, like you're going round and round in circles, fighting with yourself"
*blushes*
"I like this because I know it always sends you running back to me, for a quick 'one card draw' to clear things up...... you know me honey, I'll take whatever I can get!" *Blows me kiss*
Ah...ok....
Cards 3 and 4: Sorcerers Deck, what are two things you like about Gilded Deck?
Four of Cups and Four of Swords
So Gilded gave me two fives and you give me two fours..... I guess that shows you're kinda playing well...
Four of Cups: "Hmmm" She says thoughtfully... "I guess I like that since you got me you've been neglecting Gilded"
*giggles*
Hey! That wasn't the question! The question was what do you specifically like about Gilded!
"Oh ok...." Pauses to think... "Ummm.....I like the way he makes you feel. When you use him you tend to feel like a little girl being taken for a wild ride on a scary wolf! Tarot cards used to bore you, and you almost gave up reading until you found him, and if it wasn't for him, you never would have found me! So I really really like that about him!"
Four of Swords: *More giggling* "I like the fact that both me and Mr Gilded get to sleep in the same box on your nightstand together! Before I came to you I used to be afraid of sleeping at night. I was afraid of the proverbial "monster under my bed", but then you took me in and placed me in that beautiful bag, right next to Mr Gilded, I feel safe and feel like I can have a good nights rest before waking and playing with you all day!"
*Bats her eyelashes at Gilded*
Hey! Cut that out you two.... I don't want to open that box one morning and find a mini deck in there!
Cards 5 and 6: Gilded Deck, what are two things you don't like about Sorcerers Deck?
Wheel of Fortune and King of Cups
Wheel of Fortune: "I don't like the way she can send you round and round and round and rou..."
But before you mentioned that you liked that
"Yeah I know, but I like it from a selfish view, because then you come and use me, but from a totally selfless view, cos you know, I'm big on the whole selfless thing, I hate it because I don't like to see you confused."
But it's probably my fault. If I knew how to read her cards better she wouldn't send me round and round...
Not to mention, that I don't read you very well either...
"Hmph!!!"
*Crosses his arms*
"I think SHE does it on purpose"
King of Cups: "I also dislike the way she opened up your intuition. That was supposed to be my job! I was the most beautiful deck you had ever seen! You had me for over a year! I was your only deck and you were happy with me. Then you found AT.... BAH! Don't get me started on AT! Do you honestly think I don't see how addicted you are?! I'm a tarot deck! You can't fool me! You found AT and realised there were all these other decks out there. You spent HOURS looking at all those pretty decks, then, suddenly SHE turns up and I get neglected! Worst of all you read better intuatively with her than you ever did with me! That hurts!!!"
*gets all emotional*
Aw, but you'll always be my first love! *Gives her Gilded Deck a hug!*
Cards 7 and 8: Sorcerers Deck, what are two things you don't like about Gilded Deck?
The Sun, Eight of Swords
The Sun: "I don't like that he is prettier than me. Don't get me wrong, I think I am pretty, but I know that you think he is prettier. How do you think that makes me feel?? I also dislike that he is easier to handle than me. Just give me a chance! I am only this slippery because I am new.... read the de-enabling thread! Look at all those people who complain about how slippery he is! It's just that you've been using him so long that you don't remember it. I'll be that pleasant to touch if you keep working with me"
First of all, I think you are pretty but in your own unique way.
Secondly, this is supposed to be about him not you!
*pouts* "I know. It's just that his colours are much more vibrant and so much prettier, and I have these dull pastels... how can you think my cards are sure of themselves if my colours aren't even sure of themselves...
Stop stressing. Just keep giving me the right cards and I'll know what to do with them...lets move on, you seem to be stuck in a rut here...
Eight of Swords: "I don't like that you feel bound to him. Like you owe him something. I think you are quite capable of doing an IDS with me but you keep chickening out because you don't think that you can *does an eyeroll* lock him in a box for a couple of weeks and keep your hands off him. Honestly, anyone'd think he's a piece of chocolate cake the way you act around him sometimes. He has you blinded with his beauty.... it annoys me"
Ah ok.... a tarot deck with image/body issues..........*sigh*
Card 9: Gilded Deck, how do you over all feel about Sorcerers Deck?
Strength:
"I like the way she has empowered you. Given you strength and courage to work with the tarot intuitively. I feel she makes you a better reader, even if you are just a beginner. Over all I think she has allowed you to improve greatly. You have grown by leaps and bounds and at the end of the day......I think I like her. She brings out the best in you."
*suddenly becomes shy and decides to intently study his toes*
Thank you for your insight Gilded..... it has been... interesting
Card 10: Sorcerers Deck, how do you over all feel about Gilded Deck?
Nine of wands.
"I like him as a friend but I wouldn't sleep with him"
Ah is that your funny little tarot way of saying that he is pretty to look at but I shouldn't read with him?
"Yep! Precisely! He is pretty but you just don't click with him like you do with me. His imagery is so beautiful that you get lost in it. It ties you down and tires you out which is why you are unable to read him properly. You spend too much time admiring his looks and find it too hard to get the message that he is trying to convey to you. You end up giving up and going for his Little White book, which is actually a big orange book and takes up too much space. I think he is one wand away from being a major burden."
Interesting! Thank you so much for your insight..... it's true...I do find it a lot harder to read with Mr Gilded, but he is so beautiful that I just can't give up on him! I love him too much.... I guess I shall persevere and one day have my 'AHAA!!!' moment, where everything will just make sense...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Welcome to PDR...
Study has never been one of my strong points. It's not that I dislike learning, or am not good at it, quite the contrary in fact. It's just that I don't enjoy the ritual of study. I don't like sitting there, making notes, scribbling away. I am not that kind of person.
I was always the kid who goofed off in class, who distracted everyone around her, but still managed to get good grades.
One year, my science teacher ticked yes to the little box on my report card, saying "parent teacher interview required?". I had come first in my class and naturally I assumed she wanted to see my parents so she could congratulate them, and me, for my wonderful accomplishment..... boy.... wasn't I wrong?
She yelled and screamed and carried on how it wasn't fair that I had gotten the grade as I did not deserve it. I never did home work. I never did assignments. I was a constant distraction to those around me and spent more time passing notes to my friends than taking notes from the board, but somehow, when it came to doing the end of term, half yearly and yearly exams, I always came out on top.
What I guess I am trying to get at is, that I can't do the study thing. It bores me. As long as I am interested I will soak up information like a sponge. But if I have to sit there researching and reading and writing, then I sooner or latter end up folding paper aeroplanes and sending them flying around the room.
That is why I got excited about the PDR. I had always wanted to do an IDS....really really wanted to do it.... but I am so not the studying type. That and just the very thought of only being able to handle one deck for a couple of months gets me into origami mode....
I am excited. Very excited. I look forward to reflecting on the Lo Scarabeo Sorcerers Deck, drawn by one Antonella Castelli. I am currently in love with it... (thanks to a trade with ms thorhammer!)
I love my gilded deck too, but I find the Sorcerers deck easier to read intuitively.... maybe because I spent over a year using the Gilded and it's LWB, not bothering to try and learn meanings and now I have worn that deck out.
I figured, just to start off with, I would do make my first reading for this blog short and simple.
What is this PDR going to teach me?
Queen of Pentacles...
My first thought is to do a massive eye roll.... which I do.... but the card is still there... begging for interpretation
I am terrible with court cards. I know the basic meaning for most of the major and minor arcana but the courts I struggle with....
Ms QoP is staring into her pentacle, using it almost as a mirror. She looks upset, unimpressed. There is nothing else in the card with her. Just her and a pentacle and a knotwork border. I would almost venture to say that she looks lonely.
The feeling I get from this card is that this PDR is going to teach me how to look deep into my cards. That by the end of it I will be reading all on my own, instead of with the LWB which I am, at the very moment trying very hard to avoid looking at. I can't get over how upset she looks though.... perhaps this isn't the deck that I will finish my PDR with???
**Takes a quick peak at the LWB**
Mistress, attention to details, giving sentimental value to objects, reminiscing....
Well... that was kinda close I suppose...
Well that's it from me today. I'll be sure to visit every week, and post any interesting readings I do in the meantime....
I was always the kid who goofed off in class, who distracted everyone around her, but still managed to get good grades.
One year, my science teacher ticked yes to the little box on my report card, saying "parent teacher interview required?". I had come first in my class and naturally I assumed she wanted to see my parents so she could congratulate them, and me, for my wonderful accomplishment..... boy.... wasn't I wrong?
She yelled and screamed and carried on how it wasn't fair that I had gotten the grade as I did not deserve it. I never did home work. I never did assignments. I was a constant distraction to those around me and spent more time passing notes to my friends than taking notes from the board, but somehow, when it came to doing the end of term, half yearly and yearly exams, I always came out on top.
What I guess I am trying to get at is, that I can't do the study thing. It bores me. As long as I am interested I will soak up information like a sponge. But if I have to sit there researching and reading and writing, then I sooner or latter end up folding paper aeroplanes and sending them flying around the room.
That is why I got excited about the PDR. I had always wanted to do an IDS....really really wanted to do it.... but I am so not the studying type. That and just the very thought of only being able to handle one deck for a couple of months gets me into origami mode....
I am excited. Very excited. I look forward to reflecting on the Lo Scarabeo Sorcerers Deck, drawn by one Antonella Castelli. I am currently in love with it... (thanks to a trade with ms thorhammer!)
I love my gilded deck too, but I find the Sorcerers deck easier to read intuitively.... maybe because I spent over a year using the Gilded and it's LWB, not bothering to try and learn meanings and now I have worn that deck out.
I figured, just to start off with, I would do make my first reading for this blog short and simple.
What is this PDR going to teach me?
Queen of Pentacles...
My first thought is to do a massive eye roll.... which I do.... but the card is still there... begging for interpretation
I am terrible with court cards. I know the basic meaning for most of the major and minor arcana but the courts I struggle with....
Ms QoP is staring into her pentacle, using it almost as a mirror. She looks upset, unimpressed. There is nothing else in the card with her. Just her and a pentacle and a knotwork border. I would almost venture to say that she looks lonely.
The feeling I get from this card is that this PDR is going to teach me how to look deep into my cards. That by the end of it I will be reading all on my own, instead of with the LWB which I am, at the very moment trying very hard to avoid looking at. I can't get over how upset she looks though.... perhaps this isn't the deck that I will finish my PDR with???
**Takes a quick peak at the LWB**
Mistress, attention to details, giving sentimental value to objects, reminiscing....
Well... that was kinda close I suppose...
Well that's it from me today. I'll be sure to visit every week, and post any interesting readings I do in the meantime....
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